its a bad one. horrible. mean and miserable day. I dont want to be here any more. I dont feel like i belong on sf either. there is nowhere for me. not being dramatic, it just is what it is. I'm so upset right now, and angry, very very angry. And I feel stupid. Moreso than usual. I want to cut and cut and cut and not stop. I want to be done. I want it all to be done. No one to call or talk to. I probably wouldnt anyhow as Id be imposing. theres no one who could possibly understand my demented way of looking at things. And thats probalby what all of this is. I already know I'm fucking useless and shit. I dont need that emphasized. Seriously. I need out. I don't know how or if I can.