I don't know if I'm dying or not. I don't know how to tell. All I know is I'm too sick to eat any more pills. I've been throwing up all day. Not even a sip of water stays down. The pain in my head is very bad. I had nightmares while I was passed out this morning in the bathroom. In them I remember screaming "I'm a human being!" over and over. I was afraid of being reborn as something else in a lower realm I don't believe in an afterlife when I'm awake but in the dream it seemed very real. I don't know what that means but if I live through this I think I will be grateful. Maybe it's just because I'm still drugged up but I feel like there might be a reason I'm not dead.