Its another of those days when im wishing many things. I can't see a point in trying to continue. So what can I do about it? Cut to help the thoughts, control the anxiety? Plan? Run again from what? There's nothing to run from, just life. Im back where I was, the trip exasperated my thoughts. Its like im here, now what do I do? Cut more? Drink more? Try the stash of mmeds? What? I can't see a future.