Started the day slightly suicidal. Met with my partner on-line he is starting to get into the BP. It's over 6 weeks late, but I believe a late BP with teeth, is much better then a crappy BP, if I wrote it. I am hoping his motivation keeps up. As a result, I actually suffered from a little happiness today. For about 10 minutes. Now I am not as suicidal as I was this morning but suffering a little. The Most important thing I can do for my self, is to kill any depresso thoughts, the "if only" , "would have been", etc. before they start. That is my only real chance to move forward and maximize my (our, my business partner) chance for success. This week I went out to eat with friends, went wake-surfing (way to cold), and went for a walk with my wife, our dogs, some friends and their dog. All good things to help me go forward.