So I am on week 7 of Prosac. Has it helped? yes. Am I still suicidal yes. Are the reasons that make me suicidal still here, yes. What am I doing about it. Was doing three now doing two things. 1. I am changing my job at work and that is helping. They won't let me leave my current one, but it's down to 30 minutes a day of work. I fix gaming software that when broken they're losing money -- so they want to keep me around. What I've done is gotten involved with new technology in the company that has a future for the other 7.5 hours a day. Something I can put on my Resume if needed. 2. I have been working on a BP, that's dragging on, for full out development of the imaging technology I've worked on and off for the last 20 years. Assuming we get the Business Plan done, and if there are no takers, then I am going to try and sell the technology to any company who will buy it. 3. I sent my testing report of a companies medical images to the requesting company (they were mostly positive); they wanted to check out if our technology would work for their medical images. We have not heard back from them. And, I have no intention of calling them. If they said yes, I would be surprised. Second, I don't want the work. I am not sure our technology will work for their application. The test were positive and and neutral both. We need a larger data set to figure out if the technology would work. I don't want to put myself in a situation where they pay us a bunch of money to do something we can't. If they came back and were willing to pay to test a larger data set that would be great. More testing is needed for sure. So for the moment I am letting this die. So that's that. The question remains do I still want to kill myself. Yes actually, just not as much. I am still depressed? Yes, just not as bad. I am going forward with life? At the moment yes. Why because I don't have much of a choice really. I've listed the choices before: 1. Suicide, 2. do nothing, 3. Try to go forward. "1." Is really hard to do, and permanent. "2." Sucks, you just stay in pain and eventually whatever you have left in life will implode around you. "3." Is the only option that has some potential success.