Today's suicidal update

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by WannaEndit01, Oct 4, 2016.

  1. WannaEndit01

    WannaEndit01 Well-Known Member

    Working at home today which is always more dangerous. I get lonely real quick, etc. I have an on-line debug session which helps a lot.

    Fighting off my "if only" and "could have been thoughts" is especially hard when working at home. At my worse I would lie catotonicly in bed spiraling deeply in the above thoughts. Unable to get out of bed. In order to have a chance at a life going forward I need to extinguish those thoughts.

    Today I am going to try and go sculling. It's scary, because the last thing I need is be stuck out on a scull in a depressive plunge.

    Anyway the days has started, here goes . . . .