I want to die but I am afraid to do it. I have been a afraid of most things in my life..why should this be any different lol. I am not fucking joking..I am in a bad situition and I see no way out. I am not going out on the street. I am not going to sleep in my fucking car. I just wish this was all over with. I sleep on the fucking couch..I don't do drugs.. but I am surrounded by others who do..Everything is so dark..I am trying to listen to my higher-psychic self..I am trying to receive some kind of guidence which is wise and profound, but so far I see no other solutions here..my life has been a failure..I feel trapped..I want to see things work out but I cant see it. I am tired of the other peoples lies about me..I want this weight lifted off me..I can't write anymore tonight people are here..the same people who wish I was dead.. be back tommorrow..