I hope I drink enough tomorrow night to give me the guts to go through with it. She'll be with him tomorrow and obviously in the evening/night, how the fuck am i supposed not to think about it. I can see one sure fire way not to have to think about it permanently. I'm always thinking about it now, i hope i have the guts to go through with it. Don't think about it, how the fuck are you supposed not to think about these things, my favourite time is when i'm asleep anyway.