Hello everyone, my name is Ryan. I'm 20 and living in TX. Chances are that if you're reading this- you're, like me, not too happy with life right about now. I've been coming to this forum for quite some time; mostly just reading other people's stories and feelings. As I'm sure you know, this world is a pretty screwy place. Many of you have been through some really crazy shit; way more than me. Some of you might be mourning the loss of someone special to you. Some of you may have been traumatized by some horrible event. I bet many of you, like me, may be horribly lonely which is, in my opinion, one of the worst feelings a person can experience. Or maybe you just feel down and you can't quite point out the problem. Whatever the case, I invite you to partake in something with me tomorrow on New Years Eve. The new year is upon us. And the old is ending..another year of life is almost dead and gone. You see: Over this holiday season I had a lot time to think. I've come to realize that I hate myself. There are many things that I'm discontent with in my personality- but one of my biggest is my shyness. Because of it, I have become isolated and lonely. I can see being alone my whole life and that really hurts and disturbs me. I can't have that and I won't. I've got to do something. I've got to end this and thus myself. And I will, tomorrow night at 12...along with this year... ...and become anew with the start of the new year. I invite you to do the same. I'm not talking about physically committing suicide (that definitely wouldn't make things better). I'm talking about metaphorically killing yourself, in order to start over with a fresh slate. A brand new template. For me and some of you I'm talking about change. For others, I’m speaking of forgetting the past and looking to the future. Still others: a chance to feel reborn and rejuvenated. You see, for me this will be satisfying in that I will have officially ended my old self...but still have my whole life to implement the new me- the hopefully better me. But, what about you? It could very well do the same for you if you give it a try. I know some of you have suffered so much..have gone through so much bullshit life has thrown your way that I couldn't possibly relate. I understand there's no easy fix. But who knows? Perhaps by having a mental funeral for the old us- by waving goodbye to this year and the years before them, we will release some of the burden. It will be closure. And just maybe then, we can find a solution for our pursuit of happiness. Whatever your situation may be, whether you're in hell on earth or just discontent with the way things are going: Mentally (not physically) die with me tomorrow, so that we may be reborn and live better thereafter. Give it a try.