It seems like the only way out. I can't stop drinking I'm alienating my husband I am incapable of supporting my mom and sister I have disappointed the people at work I don't want to go through another bipolar up-and-down ever again I don't have close friends I'm 33 and I won't ever have children of my own Don't even know why I'm typing this here. Nobody will respond. Nobody can help. I'm alone. I have failed life out of my own doing and now I am paying the bill for oxygen used. I had to leave a note somewhere. Tomorrow then. I'll wrap stuff up today.