Hey hun, don't know if you will read this but I just want you to know I really do love you with all my heart and I couldn't do this without you. I want you to be here forever and be happy, I care about you more that I have anyone, yea we have had our ups and downs but hunni what best friends don't? I can't wait to see you on 14th, please stick around I don't know what the hell I would do without you. I'm lost when I'm not talking to you, I just want you to be happy and raise Emma and be the good mum you are. Don't blame yourself for being down and depressed it's your head and the horrible things that have happened to you. I will be here for you as long as you are. I love you hun. P.s - Even if you do find you can't stick around then let me go with you.