I've had my fill of it all. No-one cares and turn a blind eye like nothing is wrong with me. Going to the hospital is a complete waste of time. All they will do is give me more laxatives and/or injection for the pain. None of it works or does anything for me. I'm sorry but I WILL NOT take this ANYMORE. If my death hurts people that's not my fault. No-one understands what i've been living and dealing with the past 2 years. I'm soo sick of hearing "Just hold out till the test" It's easy for anyone to say that when they aren't not the ones who is in my position and having unbearable pain. If a patients condition is worsening they just move the date of the test up. Gee. I've only waiting been waiting since October for this ***** test. They just don't care at all. I don't care what happens tonight or how it all goes down. If you think i'm a coward for killing myself over this well whatever. You clearly don't have any clue what I have been living with. Go ahead if someone wants to call the Cops. I'll tell you where I live. Be easier if they just shot me to death instead. Prefer that then having to jump off a bridge.