This past week in particular my self harm has been off the wall. The other day I cut my leg and it was bleeding quite a bit. I woke up two hours later and it was bleeding.. I doubt very much it was bleeding for the whole two hours because I'd have thought I'd pass out, I must have caught it or something but either way, it was nasty. Tonight I cut my leg at about 6pm, at 9pm the pain was still extreme and I'm having problems walking, it was an akward place to cut and again, it was bleeding quite a bit but now it's stopped. I know my self harm is getting worse, 6 months ago, one cut 'per self harm episode' was enough but overtime one cut isn't enough, it's now turned into more cuts and I sometimes go over and over the cuts I hate it... Well, that's a lie. I do like self harm (the pain etc..) but I realise I need to stop and tonight I am very determined I'm not going to cut again... It's going to be difficult. Very difficult indeed.. but I hope to update this post in 7 days to say I'm self harm free... let's hope.