Last night was gonna be my night, but the way i was doing it made me feel ill. I got new plan. A plan that won't fail. Fuck January the 13th, that dat was to get back at someone else, this is for me. I choose when i die and i choose tonight. I got the method and i got the place. Yeah yeah yeah i know im gona get told about the 'knock on affect' but obviously it dont mean shit to the people who tell me it. After all their day is comming soon, well mines here. Wow my last day on earth, spent it curled up in bed, how pathetic, just like me. Get the lecture about my death will mean that someone else is a murderer once again. You don't understand, no one is killing me but me. You going is gonna kill me, so your set on 'your day' so either way im dead right. Your set on this so im just gonna go save myself the hurt for once. You can tell other people things but the same fucking thing applies to you and you dont give a shit about listening. I was soo wrong in thinking someone could talk me out of it. I was comepletely wrong, i can't believe i actually thought that hahahaaha. Yeah yeah so there it is. For those of you who 'worry' about me, i wouldn't bother, i aint worth the trouble. Some say im letting people down, especially people the people im close to on here, well there gonna let me down anyway right, why not say myself the hurt once in my life. Bye. You all take care now. Love you all Vikki.