Yes, I'm finally going to do it. Right after my mom goes to sleep then she won't find me until Wednesday evening so that leaves me plenty of time. I have a bunch of drugs that I plan on taking and I know that they will stop my heart. I'm really looking forward to this but am fearful that I will survive despite my confidence in my plan. My mom will disown me if I survive, she's already told me that. What else can I say other than wish me luck!