I know you're feeling sad and alone and sometimes we all feel no one gives a shit.
This maybe more to do with your depression.
Have you seen a doc, been given any treatment?
Hang in there and see what treatments there are, get the depression under control and then see how you feel. :hug:
i tried telling my doctor but i couldnt get myself to actually say the words. most of my last appointment with my therapist i just sat there. not saying much. i just hate actually talking about my problems. and while i trust her and all, i feel like she doesnt actually listen to me and hears what she wants to hear to sound smart and helpful.
i just am so scared to start over again with meds, cuz its frustrating and all the generic questions, and i get pissed off.
you have to change something though right so you can get a different results maybe new therapist one that does listen to you. Meds may just need to be upped a bit not change but you have to advocate for YOU okay so you can get feeling better hugs
have you thought about writing down how you're feeling and giving the letter to the therapist..same with the doc...write your questions out and let him read them
just a thought
I hope you'll postpone your attempt and find some more help