Well I can't believe I'm posting here. For the first time in years I cut tonight. At first the object was blunt which was ok but later I needed more so got a blade and drew blood. It was so relieving at first, pretty spots of red. but then i freaked myself out with what id done and had issues stopping the flow. Can I trust myself now to not repeat and go back to other safer ways? Or just to stop? I'm scared I'm at this point. I hate others made me this way and I'm still letting them win.