I've been thinking about it off & on for a few months but I think tonight is the night. I've alienated all of my friends, quit school and my job because I'm afraid to leave my apartment unless I have to. Gotten so far in debt that I'm being a drain on my parents. I'm 26 years old and constantly make the wrong decisions. I don't wanna do it but I'm scared to death and miserable all the time. I've tried therapy and meds but nothing works. I feel like a whiny b*tch complaining; I mean, hell, everyone has their problems. I know if I do something that it's really gonna hurt my family, but I keep feeling that they'd be better off.