Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by Why Am I Here, Jul 2, 2011.

  1. Why Am I Here

    Why Am I Here Well-Known Member

    Fuck you, Lucas. You figure that because I'm "changing" or something that you don't want to be there for me anymore? You're the only one that knows I want to kill myself and wake up every morning wondering if that day will be the day I make the final call. You're the closest person to me, the only person I can trust, my only friend. Up and left me now I'm all alone and you can't even talk to me anymore. I trusted you, you fucker. Lost all my other friends and you've been there for me for years. I can't even go out of the house cause I'm socially xxxx and no reason to leave the house. There are only a few reasons I decide not to kill myself. You're not on that list anymore. You know how I feel about life and it's uselessness and you agreed with me on that saying I shouldn't kill myself because it would hurt you and it would be selfish, I think I should kill myself cause I know you would be affected by it. That would get you back. Thanks for ditching me. I don't know what true friends are because I have no friends.

    that's my rant for the night wanted that to get off my chest somewhere but I can't yell around the house because others are here.

    I need to cool off or something. FUCK!
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  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

  3. UsedToBe

    UsedToBe Well-Known Member

    hugs to you...
  4. Why Am I Here

    Why Am I Here Well-Known Member

    I felt a lot better after I typed that. haha
  5. black orchid

    black orchid Well-Known Member

    Glad to hear that you are feeling better sometimes a good rant helps more than hours of talking :)