So I've made it through my last week. I'm off to a solitary place this weekend and will finally be able to rest. I don't really know why I've come to a forum to explain, it's the first time i've ever used one, but I think I think it's to try to appease my guilt. Life is great for those who have a sense of hope and purpose but that dried up for me a long time ago. Depression is a killer and it's finally got the better of me. Since deciding to bring things to a conclusion I have felt such relief. One last experience to go, and perhaps the hardest. But eternal nothingness is my idea of perfection. And my legacy...well just another statistic I suppose.