I find myself in crisis right now. I cruised SF and then found my way to NAMI. Hoping I could at least spill my guts, I found they want $$$ to discuss my issues. Am I missing something here? I live on a monthly grant and a part time job. I have no credit cards to speak with NAMI. What the hell are they thinking? I was so very ready to throw myself into help. I know I need it and want it. I just can't go the hospital here. Its a very samll town and I have toured what hey call the pward. Its more of a jail. Steel bed and four walls.....and a blanket. It might be ok for those who can sleep. I seldom sleep. Now I wonder what options are left for myself. To help myself I need a credit card. To not help myself I only need time. I already have the means....same as last time....but I was caught and was not carried through. I know I will be here tomorow & the next day. I just need to blast my thoughts. Knowing my means and ridding myself of this life! Oh! How so easy and relaxing..... I want life but my thoughts scream otherwise! Somebody please tell me all can & will be alright?