too easy

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by lost_child, Nov 20, 2008.

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  1. lost_child

    lost_child Well-Known Member

    How easy is it to convience the professionals that your "ok" and have no intentions that you are suicidal or having thoughts of self harm and harming others.....its too damn easy.

    Sure I can say it on here..there at nobody on here that can get me sectioned or protect the very person I want to hurt and will hurt...there at nobody on here that "physcally" stop me not like the police can by arresting me, or the MHT by sectioning me....

    But who I am kidding.........if I don't tell them the truth, am I denying myself a chance? How do I go to the doctors and say ...I want to kill XXX and then KILL myself, I have the methods and the plans...i've got XXX tablets and a XXX...what happens then? will the thoughts/feelings go away or will I be told "give it time"
     
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  2. Oak

    Oak Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    Jody why dont you give yourself a chance at being helped for a change?
    I know what you have been through and i'd have same feeling towards the
    perpretator but what will it change? You wont find peace in acting on it.
    Just stay away from him and those who abused of you and forget that they even exist. As to killing yourself i am against it. You are such a wonderful soul that the world would miss you greatly I know i'd miss you if you did so rething and meditate on this and let them help you as far as they can so you can move on with your life and feel safe.

    lots of love Jody, big hug from granny xox

    if you need to talk you can either pm me or add me on messenger at
    granny1@live.it

    you are stronger than any of them hun. remember that. love you kiddo! xox
     
  3. Acy

    Acy Mama Bear - TLC, Common Sense Staff Member Safety & Support

    Lost Child,

    Please don't hurt yourself or anyone else. It won't fix or change anything. You've been so brave and strong. Keep going with that. We're all on your side here, hun, and we'll support you through the rough times.

    Again, please don't kill yourself or anyone else.

    Love and hugs,

    A.
     
  4. lost_child

    lost_child Well-Known Member

    I have tried, I was in counselling for over 2 years, then a month after I reported she left....and I started seeing someone else, but she just either doesn't listen or doesn't understand me. I've an appointment with a specialist D.I.D counsellor tomorrow morning, but already I know that even when I tell myself, talk to hear, take a chance..I will withdraw, go shy, and shut down....I've tried to many times, i've been let down and mis-understood too many times.

    The world will be a better & safer place once he's out of the way...I'd have tried the legal way, but CPS will i know it continue to let him abusing children, children who will then become adults and will forever be scared by he's actions. They childhood denied because of him...I lived too long already knowing that, feeling the guilt for not speaking up over 10 years ago... My life to me doesn't matter, I actually have gone past believing there's a chance. I just wait for CPS to decide that then I WILL end 2 lives.
     
  5. lost_child

    lost_child Well-Known Member

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    The police had to alter his return date to New Years Eve as there were no available times left open until that day so it won't be before the 16th...aka...I won't hear until NEw Years eve of all days what CPS decide (if I read it right).........so techinically my life could end 31/12/2008...6 months before my 30th...I've always claimed i wouldn't live to see my 30th and that is looking to be true
     
  6. Dave_N

    Dave_N Guest

    Hi Jody. Let the courts put that sick pervert away for good. You don't need to kill him. I know that he hurt you many years ago, but if you kill him, then you will be charged for his murder. The courts might be sympathetic to you due to the abuse that you suffered as a child, but who knows. Please don't kill that guy and please don't kill yourself hun. :hug:
     
  7. k2hsharpe

    k2hsharpe Antiquities Friend

    Lost Child

    I can't comment on your plans for this man if the courts don't do their job, I've not had to live your life, I don't have to live your pain. But you truly don't have to feel any guilt about anything you did or didn't do 10 year ago.

    And I want you to know that there is someone on the other side of the world who has never met you but who believes in you and believes this world is a better place for having you in it. My birthday is in June, I really hope I celebrate it knowing you still live
     
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