Dunno wha had happened but as suddenly hit me again and feeling so low. It a been one of those days where I have stayed in bed all day. I just feel exhausted. I am not sleping a night really either. I go to sleep thebn I wake up about 2 hours later. I was gonna see if can get some sleeping pills or somthing as it is what is making me feel so low. I am going to try and distract my self as I am feeling quite suicidal again. The thing is I dont wanna mess it up if I do it again. But it is not something I can plan out when I feel so bad as my mind is not with it. I can't go on like this. I want out!