a year and a half ago. that's when me and my girlfriend decided to have an abortion. we decidec her being still in school and me looking for a job , we couldn't have a child. It happened by accident a condom ripped. Since then I can't get over it. I've become aggressive , been drinking , lost my girlfriend and many friends because of my attitude. I can't forgive myself for taking a child's live. Is me feeling so bad about myself punishement for what I did ? Maybe. I have nightmares , a child is crying in a house , I'm looking in the house , everywhere , but I can't find her. I couldn't protect my daughter, I failed as a dad , and a human being. I've tried to fight it but I don't know what to do, I can't forget her, I can't forgive myself. A year and half of this , I don't have any fight left in me. I know she would be ashamed of me. And it would be another thing i'm sorry to her for , but I don't know what to do anymore.