I'm sure it will be a week at most. More a few days. If i can stay devoted, i will be gone in two days tops. No need to say why, it's been accidental till recently. But, it's so far now, i will not do much to stay here. I can't believe how things turned. Three people i never thought i'd hear from again, all offering me forgiveness in a week? The one friend i feel closest too, basically doesn't care that i exist. My only other close friend has been the only one offering support/ company for a long time now. I actually want to go more now. I've been officially forgiven, and talked to people i missed. That seems like everyone's ideal end-phase goal. No need to be hurt by things going bad again. Besides, the people i'm close to no longer care. It's all perfect for dying, not so much living. I have my prescriptions to keep me sleeping, my mind comfortable, any pain away, even to aid in my process, and now i can od all that i want. Basically, i put my self in a self administered hospice. No need to feel sad. I feel so at peace now, so forgiving of everyone, so comfortable about my 'end' so understanding of life, and i know i won't be missed, but i won't be resented. I had a vision of my death once. I was surrounded by people who wanted me comfortable, and one person in particular is part of my life, that was in it, long before we met. Then as i peacefully died, peaceful/happy things you can't imagine happened. I look forward to seeing my oldest friend once more.. If only briefly. I hope i can help everyone here, after i go.