I thought I would go through all the forums last night and see just how many apply to me. Wow, I'm more fucked up than I thought. It's terrifing to see how many forums involve an aspect of me, my pain. I never realized before how much pain I really try to deal with each day. It had got to the point that they all just sort of clumped together. But seeing it out there in the forum like that sorted by category made me also realize just how far beyond help I truly am. I don't have that kind of time left anymore. Why is there never enough time?