the aloneness is agony, at least for me, there has to be a way to break out of it, at least I want you to find a way, because maybe if you do, then you can tell me how to do it and we will both feel better....no pressure! ha. But seriously, its exhausting and I dont want to give you any pep talks, but i do want you to live because you seem like a very decent human being, and you deserve better.