too many losses so soon

Discussion in 'Grief and Bereavement' started by icequeen, Mar 18, 2011.

  1. icequeen

    icequeen Well-Known Member

    i feel a wilted flower
    i try to think of you but conjure nothing
    i am dying slowly, slowly but surely
    this world holds nothing not even pain
    the effort of living is hard
    the desire of dying is stronger
    but again i fail

    i hear you calling my name
    i see your eyes reflecting betrayal
    you only ever wanted me with you
    and now you feel i have abandoned you
    but i have not, i need time
    i dont know where or who i am
    give me time and i will be there

    i feel your pain yet feel nothing
    i hear your cries yet hear nothing
    i see your fear yet see nothing
    i touch your hand yet you are not here
    i open my eyes and am blind
    i open my heart and i am dead
    ...dont tell me it will be alright will never be alright

    i think of the pain i put you through
    my heart doesnt miss a beat
    i am already dead
    the pain i caused you was selfish
    but you wanted to live
    you fought, you won
    then i let you down and you left
    but still you call to me
    where are you i hear you say
    i will be there, please dont go away
    let me say goodbye to these mortal souls
    then we will have a million tomorrows
    no more pain and no more sorrow
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Your love one would not want you to leave but to heal and go on for both of you hugs