ever since i got to college it has been an incredible struggle for me not to revert back to restricting my calories. no one is here who knows my past, no one eats at exactly the same time, no one cares because they dont know me well enough. Its so hard to eat every meal and to go to the gym a reasonable amount. It's sad because i feel so lonely here since no one knows me well enough for me to say that I am actually close to anyone. I dont trust people and its hard for me to realize that out of my friends group I am probably the most mediocre of them all. I cant talk to anyone here and my closest support system is three hours away back home. =[ i keep playing with the idea of losing weight... i think i should but i know i shouldnt... idk if anyone else has experienced this, but this is one of the hardest things for me to handle here.