I wish I could just finish this, and get this over with. I have my entire life in front of me, and am choosing to throw it away. I never had goals, dreams, hopes or ambitions, and never deserved to be here. I feel bad for my family, who went through so much effort to even try and conceive me, and I've done nothing but let everyone down, and crushed everyone's dreams as to what I may have become. My potential is destroyed, and I'm a useless individual. I have no job, I have no friends, I have no prospect of being happy, all because of me.. I'm a horrible, self destructive, piece of trash. I just wish I could die in my sleep so I didn't have to actually do something for myself.