I think about suicide constantly. I think about ways how I could kill myself, <mod edit: *sparkle* : methods>. I think i'm too much of a coward that involves anything with too much pain or something that won't kill me instantly. For example, <mod edit: *sparkle* : methods> would be extremely painful. I doubt I would have to the courage to do something like that. Also, if I somehow did, I'm scared that since I wouldn't die instantly I would have a panic attack knowing of my impending expiration. <mod edit *sparkle* : methods>. I ended up driving home in shame again. <mod edit: *sparkle* methods> If I don't have the courage to kill myself that way I doubt I would have the balls to do it any other way.