I hate being in love... It hurt me so much that i can barely cope with life, everything need effort to be done, even small things... With every day my depression is worse. I have huge problems with my memory, i dont remember what have i done in past 3 days and i cant remember almost anything what happen in last 6 months, since i got depressed. I cant stand the fact that i am still single. Next week i have my 17th birthday and when i start think about it i get anxiety attacks. When i was 14 i say to myself there is plenty of time to have gf... But i am slowly running out of time... I dont know... 2 or 3 years latter it will be too late for me... Most guys at age of 20 had have girlfriend and sex, i even didnt kiss a girl. I cant stand it anymore... It hurt me so much... And dont say you must wait... I am waiting since i was 11, in last 2 years i put so much effort in it, but because of fucking social anxiety i can hardly ask a girl, or if i do (i need 5 months at least to tell a girl that i like her) she reject me.