I haven't posted for quite some time. I'm back in school full time. I'm working anywhere from 28-46 hours a week. It seems like I am spending all of my time helping everyone else. What I really need is for someone to listen to me. I am feeling totally overwhelmed. I have just over a year and a half til I get my BSW degree. I feel like I am falling apart. I don't want to let anyone down and express how I am feeling. It just seems that no matter how hard I try things just seem to mess up and I don't seem to get anywhere. I have been having suicidal thoughts quite frequently. I haven't talked to my doctor about it really. She thinks I am doing better. I was in the hospital (psych) this summer for a little while. I am supposed to pick up an extra 15 hours/week at work for the next couple weeks. I'm so behind in school. No time for friends or down time or anything. I know that when I get this way, I act impulsively and make all kinds of bad decisions. I feel that is where I am headed. It seems like every little disappointment causes even more suicidal thoughts. I have overdosed in the past and have managed to keep a supply of extra meds just in case I need them. Can anyone help me sort things out?