I have to try to wiggle my way out of an appointment today because I can't afford it. I mean, the last time I was there she told me that she thought it was anxiety and I felt like I'd wasted the money to get told I was crazy. I won't go into everything she said, but she made a lot of assumptions and said a lot of things a doctor shouldn't say, especially a specialist that knows nothing about my other problems. I hate phone calls so much, so I've ignored the need to cancel it for a month now. I can't afford insurance, I cant afford self-pay, and disability has denied me three times, so I'm basically left to try and fight an illness that's causing me to feel like I'm gonna die.