There's so much here but it all means nothing. maybe its how im looking at the world. I can have a drive for life when i want to but just lately it seems my drive is really just to run away from the truth of it all. so ive searched for the meaning of life. Ive looked hard in everything i can. i got the most sense and felt that the truth was there in the teachings of buddism as it follows the science of the world around you and there are no depictions of some great all powerful being. Just a gentle reminder to be yourself and strive for the truth. so i did. the end result being that it is simply an infinity, its a collection of a collection or a collection,,,,,and so on. we are but the smallest possible insignificant piece of the puzzle. if we all come together in the end and move on to become something bigger and that is a never ending circle then what is the point of it all? its empty. it feels meaningless perhaps i havent looked far enough but how can one see beyond infinity? Am i alone in this? other people have God. they do not see from my perspective that even if there was a God he would too be a part of something bigger. It doesnt jsut end with some Omnipotent being that has been there since the dawn of time. how did he get there? there must have been something beyond that,,,,, which we are a part of,,,, the energy of everything... which by the way i have concluded is gravity. the force that makes us cling, protons neutrons electrons exc,, spin due to centrifugal gravity,,, it just made sense to me. i cant seem to find a reason to bother anymore. whats the point.