why do i listen? why do i let myself be convinced to hold on to the hope that things will get better?
why do i get up in the morning and keep forcing myself to come to work when just the sound of my manager's voice can make me feel so small and worthless?
why do i keep breathing when it only means that i will keep failing over and over and over and over and over?
i can't do this - i don't want to do this - why am i doing this?
complete disappointment as a son
total failure as an employee
absolute fuckup as a parent
waste of a life
i want to die so much right now but god won't do it for me
god helps those who help themselves right?
already alone - no one to hold me - no one who can comfort me
head is a mess - thoughts keep flying around out of control
always put everyone else ahead of me and it was easy - everyone else is more important
but i'm wrung out - weight of my regrets are crushing me like a ton of rock
everytime i try to do the right thing it goes wrong - i'm a walking disaster
i just want to lay down and stop
why do i get up in the morning and keep forcing myself to come to work when just the sound of my manager's voice can make me feel so small and worthless?
why do i keep breathing when it only means that i will keep failing over and over and over and over and over?
i can't do this - i don't want to do this - why am i doing this?
complete disappointment as a son
total failure as an employee
absolute fuckup as a parent
waste of a life
i want to die so much right now but god won't do it for me
god helps those who help themselves right?
already alone - no one to hold me - no one who can comfort me
head is a mess - thoughts keep flying around out of control
always put everyone else ahead of me and it was easy - everyone else is more important
but i'm wrung out - weight of my regrets are crushing me like a ton of rock
everytime i try to do the right thing it goes wrong - i'm a walking disaster
i just want to lay down and stop