I feel so drained all the time. I can't write, I can't draw, I can barely go on walks. I had to practically drag myself home today. I haven't made any progress in...well anything. On the other hand, I can't tell if anything's getting worse either. I can't seem to remember much of anything. I'm avoiding people because I'm too tired to socialize. I think I'm shutting down. It feels like just living is taking too much out of me. I don't know why I get up, I never do anything anyway. I've been thinking about death every day for a couple of weeks now. I don't want to die, really I don't. I'm just...so tired.