I just am too tired to keep going. I miss my kids and former life. I have nothing left to give anyone or even myself. I have tried to keep going but there is no reason too. Had too many attempts thwarted now and am still sick from last weekend. I am supposed to see my therapist tomorrow morning and go to dbt group on thursday. I cant sleep before these appointments so by the time I get home after group on thursdays, I wont have slept for 3 days. I am so wound up about going. I hate these sessions - I hate the individual therapy even more. I rarely sh'ed until a year ago and now it is almost constant. I cant go tomorrow. I dont want to keep living. There is no point to life any more.