Well Kate a lot has happened since you made your choice. With out you I am now very alone with no one but people here to talk too. The last thing you asked of me was to finish therapy and I have done so. Its resulted in some positive realizations and it has certainly given me insight into things. But it has not got rid of the entirely numb empty feeling, I am more of a cynic now than ever and my thoughts are in that dark place again and I just feel lost with out you, not even the simple things give me pleasure any more. It all means nothing and no matter how hard I try to force it to mean something it just doesn't.