First off let me tell you a little about myself: I'm young bearly an adult, my body is healthy and of normal weight, I read often and I have normal or slightly higher then normal IQ, I don't drink, Don't smoke, I don't use drugs, I go to church on Sundays, And belive in honor and love. Pretty good guy right? So what would make someone like me want to kill myself? Well heres the top ten reasons: Top 10 reasons to Kill myself: #1 I am a Pedophile #2 I am Gay except for little girls #3 I have no Job #4 I have no money #5 I have no friends #6 I have no family which will talk to me #7 I can't talk to someone 5min without Lieing about somthing little #8 I hate everything #9 I live in a fantasy world #10 I am weak, both in heart and body Theres no My life sucks reason you might notice. Because my life is better then most. I do have mental illnesses such as being a Pedophile and Gay, those being my top two reasons to want to kill myself. The no Job and No money I could fix. But I've lost the will to want to work. Why? to rent a wooden box from someone to live in, crap, work, eat, work, and crap again. What a pointless existance. The no friends or family have a lot to do with the lieing. I am a Compulsive Lier. I don't lie about big things either. Just little stupid things that I have no real way of hiding. It just leaves my mouth before I even know I am lying. Another mental illnesses I suppose. #8 is a little childish, I should say I enjoy nothing. I don't like music, I don't enjoy sex, foods lost its flavor, I enjoy nothing and becuase of that Hate everything. My fantasy world has a lot to do with what other people say about me. The one time I broke down so bad I went for help all he could say after listening to me talk for an hour was I needed more friends and to stop reading fantasy books because they somtime delut ones reality and that I showed symptoms of someone living in a fantasy world. No Du I need more friends, To bad I can't let anyone close to me without trying to hurt. Maybe if I could just find one person on this earth I could trust I might have a friend. And the last one, well the fact I am posting this shows I am weak. I should go into the other room, Grab the sword my roommate has and fall onto it. He spends hours with a sharp stone on it, It cut my finger with by me only touching it to see how sharp it is. If I held it over my chest and fell.....But alas that would be to painful. I want a painless death. For I am weakhearted. You can't say you don't hate me, Just the fact that I am a Pedophile makes millions of people wish for my death every second of every day. I've never done anything to bad, so I should kill myself now and die without my true name being cursed by every mother in the world. Yes, that would be the right thing to do, wouldn't it?