OK at the moment I'm kind of torn between two people. One being my ex boyfriend. He lied to me for a long time about a lot of things but I still care about him a lot. He's changed and I don't know weather to give him one more chance. The other is a guy who is really nice - one of the nicest people I've ever met in fact. We have been really good friends for like 10 years and he wants more but I'm not sure. If i hang out with one the other gets upset. They don't like each other and they both want to be more than friends with me. I don't know where to turn. Either way I am going to hurt someone as well as myself. At the moment I'm just friends with both of them but it's still so hard! I don't know what I want and I feel like the more this goes on the worse it is getting. It's bringing me down. I feel like I have no choice! I never want to hurt anyone because I know how it feels and now I'm doing it! This weekend I'm going to a friends 21st and the guy I've been best friends with for ages will be there. It will be good to catch up with him and Im looking forward to it however of course this causes a problem with my ex. Argh i just dont know! This may sund stupid and trivial to a lot of you but you have to understand. My ex threatened to kill himself when i was with this other guy. And the other guy pretty much moved to my city for me! I feel horrible and I am having thoughts of suicide. I am having nightmares of what could happen and it's stoping me from sleeping. I can't work, I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't live like this! I just don't know what to do anymore..I've had enough!