no one understands me. i've turned into this totally indecent person, that i don't trust or understand either. i just want to be who I was inside back in the distant past, but I'm not her anymore. I'm just a self centered bastard who, if she had any decency, killed herself before she turned 15. Everyone is just all too happy to beat on me. And they'll never let up. They'll never really know, care, or understand. God hates me too I'd bet.