First of all would like to say thank you to all for your kind word and sorry to all those that were caused stress by my previous post. As you can tell my attempt failed and feeling really low at the moment. Really not in a good place. Staying indoors all the time as can't face the outside world, this is my first attempt of contacting anyone. Self harm really bad, and moods worse but i'll plod on. Just logged in to let you all know i'm ok.