I'm going to read through some of this stuff here in this here Meds forums, but... my short story: been depressed for a long time, started having mood swings during the past year or so, sought help through meds. In early December, doc put me on 10mg Lexapro, and asked me to try Seraquel (spelling?). Took the Lexapro religiously, but didn't take the Seraquel. Couple weeks ago doc resumed the Lexapro and put me on 5mg Abililfy. Taking both as prescribed. BUT! I FEEL NOTHING!!! I mean nothing at all. During the seven-week trial of Lexapro I felt better, but still enjoyed the weekends of drinking and cutting and depression and wallowing in misery. But now, I can't even look forward to that! And I've looked forward to it all week. As much as I try... I just feel nothing! Like an absolute erasure of emotion! I want to try to cry now because of this and I'm sitting here grinning, feeling nothing! It must be the Abilify. I've never felt like this before. God, oh god, this sucks! I want so much to feel more in control, but this total lack of emotion is like nothing. Just...nothing! Does that make any sense? God! I'm so damned mad! I can't just go around feeling nothing!!!