I wasn't thinking about doing it soon, I wast thinking at least after the holidays, but a few hours ago I felt strong urge to get it over with, just to end it, without a suicide note I was planning to write, without seeing a few things that I was still planning to in a next few days...
This is horrible
, untill now i felt seriously suicidal, but this time an attempt was near... Now I feel idiotic and devastated... I feel I can't do anything anymore :no: , I'M THINKING ONLY ABOUT F****** SUICIDE ALL DAYS, LITERALLY!!!!!!!!! I can't concentrate on anything esle... I really want to die, but I'm sure I can make something more of my life, but I have no idea how... I think I'll go insane... I'm not sure if I can kill myself, but it seems like the only really good thing to do...This is so miserable...
This is horrible
