I've been told before that I am a person of great contradiction. Almost everything I say or feel has two sides to it, to the point where I occasionally wonder how many personalities I have! Anyway, this site brings out the hypocrisy in me because reading all your posts makes me feel so bad for you, I just want to take everyone else's pain away and make things better. I don't believe that anyone here deserves to be in the pain they feel, and I feel that any problem can be overcome with time and a little effort. Except my own. I truly believe that suicide is not the answer, but only when it comes to other people. Why am I so convinced that I can't be helped?! This contradication is everywhere; I don't want to die, but I don't want to live, and I hide my pain so well, but I still want someone to notice. And then when someone does notice, I lie and work on hiding it even better. What the hell is wrong with me?!