Hello all. I'd just like to update you on my situation. I passed a couple tests today, so I'm closer to graduating. It was a long hard haul. I should feel excited today, but I'm not. Though I did treat myself to a Hawaiian burger and a caramel sundae. Any Hawaiian burger fans out there? For a long, long time, I've just been studying, practicing, sleeping, reading, listening to music, and daydreaming. My contact with people has been minimal. Now that I'm edging closer to the "professional" workplace, I'm getting scared. Especially because of the experiences I've had in the past. I find it extremely awkward to go out and make connections. Part of me wants to succeed and part of me wants to die. It's a constant struggle. I put on a happy front for my peers and instructors at school. But inside I'm even more terrified of failure, because it's happened at workplaces before. Who knows, maybe it's a sign of growth that I'm feeling this way. Venturing into the unknown. I feel really shaky these days! Tomorrow I will go to a mental health drop in center so I won't have to be alone.