Tough Time Today...

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by Kiba, Feb 22, 2011.

  1. Kiba

    Kiba Well-Known Member

    I have been having a very tough time today.. Just in a lot of pain after therapy.. I ended up starting to write this poem. I have always kind of seen poems more accurately describe emotions, then just plain words.. I'm surprised I even was able to type so much right now.. :cry:

    My tears fall silently
    My heart aches beyond comprehension
    Torn from my chest
    Slowly pulling apart in a million pieces
    As I sit there unable to move, speak
    Thoughts racing
    Feelings of anger, sadness

    Being trapped in a box of my own creation
    Surrounded by traps to detour the help I desperately need
    Becoming so numb
    Holding together the outside
    But sacrificing my inward heart and soul

    Fear comes in
    Holding all of this so tightly knit inside
    Avoiding the overflow
    Only caring for those besides myself

    Now looking back
    Seeing the pain avoided
    But not avoided
    Only built up

    And feeling the crush of emotions
    Making my pain feel almost unbearable
    But knowing this time around
    I am not alone.

    Yet it does not make it any easier...

  2. MoAnamCara

    MoAnamCara SF Artist

    I am sorry you are feeling this pain. Therapy IS so hard sometimes. Would a break help or a different topic perhaps?

    Take care of you tonight.

  3. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    How sad, but no, you are not alone Swifty...there are so many ppl here who care deeply for you, myself's to better deserve them...big hugs, J