Handle with care. Can cause death. Toxic. Words that should be etched on my skin in my head on my headstone How do you warn people you are toxic without scaring them off? How do you protect others from yourself while protecting your ability to end things? How do you continue the smiles, the "how are you"s, the "how can I help you?" when your mind screams at you to die all day? I want to hold out for the vacation with my husband but I feel that I will not make it.