I've been cutting for the past week and a half or two weeks? I started because I was feeling the urge to hurt myself and even kill myself, and when I started cutting it stopped me feeling suicidal, so I have continued every time I feel like shit or my gender issues are getting me down. My mam is being an absolute bitch about all of this (my gender issues). She was upset, saying that she doesn't want me to have to go through so much non-essential surgery, and thinks it's pointless as it isn't life-saving surgery. I told her about the suicide rate of transpeople (this was about 3 weeks ago when I was feeling suicidal but not cutting). Tonight I was talking to her and she accused me of this time 3 weeks ago "playing the suicide card". So that pretty much throws any chance of my telling her I get suicidal/am cutting out of the window. But then again, I always knew that if I did actually tell her, she would call me an attention seeker... (I'm sure if I wanted attention more than 2 people in my life would know - and one of them is my doctor).